Happy

Over the past few days I have discovered and have learnt many things about me and people in my life. Right now though, it is time to concentrate on me. Yes, a bit selfish but I am in a wonderful process of finding HAPPINESS, of finding LOVE for MYSELF, and in general finding ME.

I can recognize now, with help from my older sister I am a caring person. It’s who I am and it’s what I do. But I tend to do it in ways that drain on me and put my life on the back burner and focus on, well my girlfriends life. Now that I have been girlfriend less for a while and now know this information, it’s time to set me up for happiness and all else will workout the way it’s supposed to.

Finding HAPPINESS
I went away for teacher training for two reasons. The first, to become a teacher. The second, to get away from my current life. I was in a really good mind space when I left for yoga teacher training (YTT) but when I picked it out and registered for it my world was turned upside down. The relationship I was in was not what I thought it was. I was devastated. I’m not afraid to say it. So I picked a YTT that would get me out of my normal life so I could regroup. Luckily, before I left for YTT I found a passion. No that is not right. I had the passion already as I was going to do my YTT before my world flipped. I found a drive for more yoga. I was going to two or three classes a day and reading anything I could about yoga. I went to classes that would have pranayama in them so I could breathe, and clear up. I found classes that had a dedicated meditation time so I could find stillness. This new, daily hardcore practice cleared up my mind and settled me down. It helped me become HAPPY. Before I even left for YTT friends at work asked how I was so HAPPY. I went from a lost basket-case to this HAPPY yogi in just a few weeks. What did I do? Yoga. It cleared and stilled my mind.

So, I head off to YTT. To learn from a male teacher (a drawing feature for me) in a setting where I would be immersed in it 100% of the time. And I go happy. Only to find out, I’m not only at a YTT but at a School of HAPPINESS. I’m fairly confident Eoin would call it that too. In my previous posts I talk about my training. It’s safe to say I return home this huge bundle of HAPPINESS. So so many people tell me I’m glowing with joy. That I’m radiating HAPPY. And that is what I felt like. I felt amazing. I found ME.

I finally had a path, my path.

Tonight in a workshop with Ryan Leier he talked about living life with the yoga sutras. The “code of being a yogi” some might say. His examples touched home. They were dead on with events that occurred to me a few months before which made me go to Blissology. Near the end of the talk though he said something. Another teaching was told. It went something like this, in my own words or understanding:

When living with the sutras, you will know you are on the right path when obstacles come up in your life and you do not react, you just continue on, following your path because you know that the world will look after you. The world has a plan.

That is exactly how I feel now. I took a horrible event and turned it into a blessing. And this weekend I had to spend time with the girl that hurt me so badly and I had barely a reaction. I just was. As I know the world has a plan for me. And I don’t have to use energy to be mad anymore. Or sad anymore. I can just be and let it happen.

I’m LOVING MYSELF. And I’m finding MY PATH.

I AM HAPPY! I am growing!

Light + Love